I am sitting in my bed eating chocolate ice cream.
Somehow it is 7:26 and my eyes can hardly stay open. The exhaustion is beyond.
Last Tuesday, Ben was offered a job and we decided -- after ALL of this -- we are moving to California. And moving fast. In all, the turnaround will be just under three weeks. We are at eight days and counting...
When I first found out, I felt like Kristen Bell when Dax brought her a sloth. I wasn't in the fetal position, but the hysterical laughing-sobbing-sobbing erupting from my face was close. And went on for at least 45 minutes in front of my mom, sister, brother and sister-in-law. Ben had to do the talking. The turn of events! The sudden monstrous loss, and gear-jamming-shift, after all the processing and deciding NOT to go to California! About face.
So we've changed directions.
Monday and Tuesday Ben and I flew out to find a place to live. We ate amazing tacos, touched base with grounding people, and left still unsure of where we'll live or how we'll register our kids for school. The rental we found is currently being rented from guests from Friday Night Lights who've leased the place to get their kid into high school football but want to break the lease (in time for us to register for school???) Drama.
But either way, we'll be there in less than two weeks. I've heaped a pile of packed trash bags in the living room full of stuff to give away. The kitchen counter is lined with bottles and cans from the pantry. There is so much to order, purge, and reorder in a week and a half.
And the exhaustion -- I can't stop talking about the exhaustion because it's borderline dangerous for driving, it's in every bone. I can't tell if it's emotional or physical or intellectual, my brain frying over it all, or all three.
SO, we are going. Stay tuned!